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just realized im no longer in cheering comm
been transferred to student forum
which, from what i can tell
is a pit for slack sec fours
which is kinda sad cuz
just cuz i slacked prefects fer cross n track
my earlier credentials were all erased
so now i wallow in the mud
along with all the other sun bathers
i realize that i no longer care
for some unobvious reason i wish not to state

acadawardscerem 2dae
so skl ended at 10+
thus almost e whole acx decided 2 b lyk muts
and all coagulate at bala's hse
before we headed on for trng

the journey to his hse however
held a scene i will never forget

en route to his hse
was dover mrt
descending the escalator
loud chatterings of muts
in their accents and all
could be heard from e opposing stairwell
which was well and good
until

"ahhhhhh~"

in a heart-stopping moment
a hp drops 4m from e stairwell
upon impact,
it bursts into many fragments
scattering its family members
all over the bus stop
whereby a mut chiongs down e steps
to reunite the broken family
at this point
i was so engrossed in the whole thing
i crushed one of e members under my foot
oopps

well anwz
got to bala's hse
n cuz daddy vivian's a minister
derez a securityguardpost outside his door?
yeah
anwz
its BIIIGGG
not as big as xide's or shangrong's
but nevertheless colossal
had loads of fun dere
chionged to trng

where man's strength ends, the power of God exceeds. -Leonwai acXcaptain04

exceed indeed. in my hour of need, God ran his hand through me. just fresh from injury and a bad race behind me, it was for me impossible to do what i just could. but through Christ who strengthens you, all things are possible. today i witnessed a live testimonial. within me. a miracle. within me.

who else but God to remind me at this moment that acx is not everything to me? for who but Him gave me this team? therefore i must trace the roots, and from there do what i must do. however it is not only what He wants that is accomplished. God went out of His way to flourish me and to bring me a miracle. now i am fuelled. and this flame will not go out. let go and let fly. for God.

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caught moving castle with kiks 2dae
its gooooooooood
like super
go watch it



they broke my leg
they stole my shoes
they broke the bridge
they'd thought i'd lose
but they forgot
despite all of my could nots
that i could fly

one tough day

im anticipating one long entry here
if u're gonna get bored
leave

got to skl in morn for swim meet
actually didnt need to go early
but roy needed some revision
so went abit earlier
didnt really tich him much tho
wasnt really needed

with some excellent swimming
from russel irv and weichen
and one lousy swim from me
tkk snapped up e relay gold
and a record
so despite swimming like
1 whole second slower den my best
im part of that team
yes unfair
but it sure feels damn good

class relay was...
say bad for me
i did a miserable 29.01
but anwz
credit to irv again
for that final chase
ending us with 3rd
.4s behind e second
.14s infront of fourth
kudos

when all was said and done
tkk had for once won
first or second from e back for 3yrs
we swept first this year
sweet
considering tt its our weakest area
so all thanks to
our super inspiring and capable hse capt
wonder who

rushed like crazy to turf city
race cum team selection

16.51
not happee
but only haf myself to blame
the plan was good
but my mind gave in
and im a full minute behind my best
something's not right

its also interesting to see
jurong come outta no where
to beat like everybody
they beat us to first or so ive heard
vs ran without talisman ah hua
or so they did
but something struck him somewhere
i dunno

organizers took a freaking 1.5hrs
to tabulate e results
was running late for cell
yes i missed service already
so when i left
they started prize presentation
gahhh
dun care


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Maybe I'm tired. My interest in everything is displaced. Save cross-country. Perhaps in the midst of breaking the habit, I broke more than my routines and desires. Something has taken over me. I can't put a finger to it but it's changing me rather drastically. The single-mindedness frightens me a little. I feel I've become colder and perhaps a little... Sinister? I have the faintest of ideas.

How permanent will this change be? Will I be able to unbreak the broken? Personal history suggests against this. Over the years, my temper seems to have been kept in a slow cooker, gradually heating up. I still can hold my fury back, but with much less restraint than before. Especially during this period of the year, when my string's not as thick as before. I mistreat people, I disregard others. Right now only God is holding me back from expressing all these outwardly. And I am glad that God will always be there to pull on the reins. However I still do wish to be nice and all, more willingly. It's not in my nature I guess, to be a person who puts others before myself and to go all out to walk with them in their darkest moments of their lives. Is there a way to cultivate this value? I seem to be unable to grasp this concept, regardless of how fundamental it appears. I'm sort of tired of putting on masks that show how nice and cheery I am. Indeed, contrary to what most may think, I do find it a chore to keep up with the image I put up. I have in fact a stinking attitude.


still here?
thanks

day postponed

oh didnt mention yesterdae hor
eunos mrt toilet there
got some old ghey guy lah
as in really gay
n i was kinda e victim
YES im wasnt willing
NO i wasnt assaulted
but anyhows,
was damn scary back there
now think of it super funny
abit the... unbloggable
wanna noe? asskkk

udder den tt
ntg much 2dae
almost ntg at all
2ml however
packed packed packed
so today's kinda postponed till 2ml
sianzzz
haf a bad feelin
wun b able 2 make it 2 servis on time
hope not lah

n to my one faithful reader
waiting fer e germany posts
i cant find the pics =(
so sad
haii

not a regular day

oooo
paul foo got pissed during emath 2dae
instead of feeling intimidated or wtvr
we had to hold back our giggles
n let out silent bursts of luffter when he turned his bak
k wtvr

waolao
just got email from racing frogs
my frog kena attack sia
sneaky pikes
was doing super well lah
alamakx

ijtp invest 2dae
hot sia
as in, the weather
oh de skl reminds me of js
like the classrooms esp e windows
the plot of land outside dunno which block
where they grow plants or smtg
and the holes in e walls along e corridor
hurx
almost like jam put his head to e walls
wtvr
the place was like... so clean?
so clean man.

oh n i fergot to kollect my ezlink back again
so i put my wallet to e reader
den stone dere
so malu~!!

gahhh



48 days to burn or get burned
can we form a hexagon this year?
a full, unbreakable hexagon?
they may be fast
but they know we're fast too
it reciprocrates
we fear them as they fear us
we pressure them as they pressure us
but can we want it more than they do?
can we believe more than they do?
can we?

the bell will ring for he who believes.
i believe.
believe with me

decipher this

so cupid came out a tad bit late
our dude btwn the breads've been penciling out his tots on ppr.
the flutter
the four leaved clover
the obviousness of it all
yet she's oblivious
or is she?
dun worry i wun show that paper
e red paint didnt cover up something else
sneakyness redefined
buahaha

did tt sound sinister?
i tried adding the buahaha
always add when things dun sound evil enuf

newaez
royboy says i blog boringly
so shall attempt to reblogertize
heh new word dere
hurr
shall attempt

*the bell will ring for those who believe

sublime

he looks left.
he looks right.
the coast is clear. creeping swiftly down the tunnel, the darkness seemes to fade away. he is near.

he sees the light.
or does he?

unsure of the authencity of the light, he stops to survey his situation.
he sees thin wires of barb strewn across the exit.

should he push through?
or should he lie in wait?
the procrastination slowly saps his oxygen tanks dry. he must soon come to a decision.

he goes for the kill.

to the souls

if the world didnt suck
we'd fall right off

nature isnt it?
the bible declares it as well
the world will give you problems
the world will suck
but the bible also says
when God closes one door
another opens
our eyes cannot tia stamp
must take away de stamp
den we can see that door

thank God for friends
in my case
thank God for team mates
cuz when things go wrong
and knots just form
these fluffy creatures will be there to pick us up
or if they cant
they'll wallow in the sai with you
hopefully

we cant change the things that happen
but we can change our perspectives
or for those who believe
we can put on God's glasses
cuz we haf that choice
God left his glasses on the floor
for us to see that open door

as the chinese idiom goes,
water can carry boat
but water can also sink boat
well i tink time can kill you
but time can also wash away those wounds
if therez ntg u can do
but u brood abt it all day
time will kill u every second u spend brooding
move on
move on
move on
think but not linger
hurt but not prolonged
den time will wash you
and we emerge stronger, better ppl
isnt tt wad troubles are for?

put ur head down
chiong thru e crisis
noe that it will eventually come to an end
yes it will
in the mean time
dun make urself screw urself up inside
cuz its not necessary
things will end eventually
whatever has a beginning
has an end
except perhaps the size of my ego

edge

are u a hamster running in its wheel?
or are u chasing after the wind?

what is life to you?

a cycle that everyone must go through?
what are you doing things for now anyway?
fame, money, and what not.
what for?
life's full of meaning, eh?

months ago i pondered over the same questions
it was a daily affair
i was rotting from the inside
a walking corpse

then it happened

jamien brought me to church.
at first i was just caught up in e atmosphere
e singing, e jumping n all
so every week i looked forward to church
every wk i just vented everything in church
there was no God in my life
but week after week
i rediscovered the Holy Spirit.

then came church camp

bam!
a personal encounter with God
i was Godbreathed again
i lived once more
within a magical three nights,
i lived once more
the meaning of life flooded in
left right centre up down front back
it just came crashing in
and now i cant keep it out

want e meaning in life?
turn to Christ
get a life
amen

another saturday

the tide rushes on and the rivers flow.
time just never breaks down, does it?

time can make or break.
time can wash or time can create.
time can be wasted
time can be made used
time can be overflowing
time can be in abundance
why is time everything?

with a limited amount of time allocated to each and everyone
why wait for things that may never happen?

move on
we'll still be waiting
but at least we not wasting our time

think and not do
see but not say
forgive and forget

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man its finally e end of week
oh there was some house capts meeting

3 things to rem:

-appoint flag bearer for track meet
-inform all participants tt track meet is wk9&10
and that detention will be meted out to absentees
-sabo 2 ppl for founders day, where they will play
games that are on e same level as egg-on-spoon
infront of all 6 acs schools plus probably a minister

so far i've got my flag bearer
got zaini n raymond to handle track
and saboed tee
haha
cant wait to see tee jumping in a gunny sack
lick candy out of flour
or even get his leg hair plucked
and well, the like.
infront of about say, 6000+ ppl?
haha
HE AGREED DESPITE KNOWLEDGE
where else to find so gd hse member?

run, he tells himself. certainly, he tells himself.
stepping into his abode, weariness, no, mental weakness sweeps over him. a voice materializes at the back of his head. the voice is soothing, strong. stronger than his own will. he makes just about a flicker of an attempt to stop himself from succumbing to the mind crippler. he has been defeated. just so easily.

just so easily.

bamm

final day of e swim heats
3 events 2dae
got a gold and two fourths
the gold came from our medley relay
like muahaha
tkk power

newaez
my first fourth came from my 50fly
there goes our 123
but 124 ain that bad i guess
actually so far
im most happy with my 50fly?
31.79secs
cuz its not too slow
n i cant kick yet
so when i do
hopefully i can break 30

the second fourth came at 200br
ughh
lousy swim
so shall not brag about it here

den came our medley!
haha
finally a stronger team diz yr
thanks to maris stella import irving
and taiwan import weichen
muahaha
beat cks by 5secs
though i was super nervous
cuz i swam free, which was last leg
n xianling aka kenneth khing -.-"
definitely faster den me
lucky got lead
almost blew e lead tho
plunged like some fat duck
submerge liao blur down dere
den quickly swim
yep

okiex i realized e recent entries haf been stale
not tt e early entries were colorful n jumpy
but i tink my posts the standard fluctuating
and nows e low portion
arghh

-peaceout

flex that back

YES AGAIN
bagged a bronze
missed silver by .1secs
broke p.b.
not cuz only 3 ppl turned up
not cuz i nvr swam e event b4
nopex, none of tt
MUAHAHA

2ml first event 50fly
we flooding e event
me russ n weichen
which means i've to beat my pb
to get tkk in e first 3
siaox
hope like only 3 of us turns up

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YES
the first day of e swim meet was gd
my opening event bagged a silver!
i set a p.b. summore
not because only 3 ppl turned up
not cuz ive nvr swum e event b4
nopex, not at all

complexity kicks in. a colossal magnitude of twists and turns weave into the situation. games of the mind advance another level. backstabs, curve balls and even frontal resistance intensify.

perplexity however, eludes him. easily squeezing through the twisted gaps and openings, nothing seems to stop him. he knows the plots, the disguises like the back of his palm. hypocritical faces become bare in his sight. nothing hides from him.

or is everything as it seems?

could everything be a hoax? everything within his knowledge being part of a bigger plan? a diversion perhaps. a candy to capture the child's trust, easing the luring into that back alley.

can he trust the trusted? or are the untrusted ones the truthful ones? was a veil mapped over his eyes that the truth becomes wicked?

or is everything how it all seems?



happy total defence *winks* *unwinks*

breaking the habit

and so it is
its past 12
so i guess 2dae's breaking the habit
happy breakingthehabit to those following suit

59 days to cross nats
recovering from my busted ankle
i find myself back in square one
probably negative one
from now my habit is crosscountry
my blood will flow crosscountry
my instinct will reflect crosscountry
my nature will read crosscountry
lets go

breaking the habit
breaking the barriers
breaking the sweat
breaking from the competition

its down the road
and over that hill
across the grass
and over the gravel

breakingbreakingbreaking

lets break

yaysity

thursdae n fridae abit fuzzy
like both days fused together
so am gonna blog both together here

newaez, here goes thursdae

as is the case with every chinese new year
i woke up late
to find guests here already
malu-ation
newaez, 2dae's pink fer me
woohoo?
yup

ntgmuchntgmuchntgmuch

until at nite
play mahjong
fuahaha
first 3 games win $100+
ultramama sia
when it all ended
i lost $1
haha
playing fer fun eh?

okiex abt 7 liddat
left e house
to go xeed's sleepover
all i brought was hp, wallet
and this ahbeng waist pouch
with 2 oranges inside

wah biangzy
his rm bigger den my hall+dinningroom+corridor
super dua piang

ntgmuchntgmuchntgmuch

until like 12+
we started plaeing ps2
LOLX
super farnie lah
laughed for like 4+ hrs straight
luff as in tt kind tummy will pok zha one
until we started playing tekken
5 vs 5
more of exciting
i was kinda like e lousiest player there
hur
anwz
when tt ended
some started slping
den we changed games
started luffing all de way till like 8am again
den decide to spare our tummies
so e sleepover dint involve slping afterall
yah
den left e place

say is go home get stuff
den go tuition lah
fell asleep in e bus
uber shagged
so called tutor
told her tabulei tahan
so postponed

ok here's the fun part
came home
slept all e way till 3
got sms from avery
say wan go walk walk abit
yes i got suspicious
fishyfishyfishy
so sorta guessed wad was coming up
asked fer some wake-up grace
so, still clad in pink
i spiked thy hair
so yah
we walked ard
went to petrol station
he sponsor me newpaper
went back
walked abit the slow
den ave suggested we go pavillion sit sit
like wahhh
i dunno wads gg on mann
hurr
newaez, back to e story
went back home
father told me lunch in e room
so i went HIS room
den he like super kan cheong liddat
say not his room iz my room
so i altered my course
and an observation occured to me
when i left e hse
my room door wasnt closed
HMMM
ok actually i didnt suspect anything dere
den i opened e door
stepped into e room
(drums roll in suspense)
at tt moment of blur
from e corner of my eye
clad in white n blue
with extra ladden eyes
holding wad seemed to b an ant mole
was a frightening monster
if that was not enuf
2 others behind it emerged
whereby they exclaimed
"suprise!"
or was it
"happy birthday!"
i could not remember
all i noe was tt aliens did not invade
it was oh so not a monster
but a sharmaine soh sarah
k wtvr
caijing was behind~
followed by
*gasp*
suprise suprise
the male counterpart of shihui
in e form of chewhanwei~ aka chewming!!

AHHHHHH

a moment of of awkwardness was exchanged
whereby the cake
which i tot was an antmole
was placed in my hands
and i sat there
and they stood there
and we stared
b4 they decided to sing e burfdae song
n for since i dunno when
i blew out e candles
after 3 mins they reminded me to make wish
so wish i did
proceeded to cut cake
cldnt cut cake fer nuts
the proportions were UHHH
k nvm

yes i'm touched
e best burfdae celeb i must haf had so far
and for many years to come
even if i do celebrate

many thanks to caijing, shar, avery, hanwei n shihui.
and whoever i missed out
cuz e 5 musketeers seemed to haf involved many ppl
thanksthanksthanks
let thanks = x
x is a positive integer
x > x
THANKIEX

zzzz

ehh
so the shirt's not pink afterall
mom says its maroon
kanasai

oh n my 1week old shoes were stolen
yes the poser ones
left it outside grandma's hse
under this big metal cabinet
den it poofed when i was leaving
alamak
so that's 80 bucks from my angpao kollection
wahhhh
am i not to be a poser?
i guess if my new pair gets stolen within a month
i'll revert back to un-run-able or bata shoes
bleahh

k so 2dae kollected the major bulk of ang paos
273 bux
including e 3 bux i won from taitee
minus the 80 and its 193?
not bad lah

oh n i burned a cd 2dae
wanted to see if anything wrong ornot
cuz jam told me e one i burned him skipped
turns out it not only trips
but it goes down 2keys and the tempo slows
so it was pretty draggy when i listened to slow songs

oh and i found my instinctive use of language changed
just now my father drive car almost bang into barrier
instead of e old, reflexive f word
i used alamak
ai sei
that's thorough muttification fer u

oh n b4 i forget

happy burfdae to changming chanmingxia

issit me or do e names haf a slight resemblence?

just in time

bought my cheena neu ear clothes
20mins b4 e shop closed
phew
close call sia
bought at bedok centre
cheap stuffs man
i dun really noe if they look nice tho

actually i only bought ONE 'auspicious' shirt
its e big pink one
e rest all blackness
darkness at the very least

bought my first ever pair of jeans since...
p5?
yayness.
black oso
hurhur



"round and round and round we go
when we stop
no one knows"

`tis the week

cloaked in hypocrisy, the oscar-worthy assasin circles round him, embedding the hidden dagger deep into his back, before twisting the weapon free and flinging it to the feet of an innocent sheep.

behind their smiles, they conspire against him. residing in the embrace of darkness, they stand on higher ground, possessing superior perception, whilst he is eluded by their shifting presence.

an eternal grudge is beared against him. futile attempts to convert foe to friend backfires. he does not know why. drowning in the abyss of unforgiveness, he gasps for answers, all too ready to take in all that comes his way.

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sure that he is alone, he removes the plate of iron under the back of his shirt. he pats the sheep. readjusting his infrared contact lenses, he shifts away from the light, he shifts away from the darkness. he spits out the exhausted micro oxygen tank under his tongue. he withdraws from the cruel world. he withdraws from the cruel mind games.

he dons on his light-weight, sleeveless armor decked in yellow, red and blue. hugging his feet are a pair of wings, with a big 'N' embedded in them. he slips on a crucifix. he discards his troubles. he starts to run.

but he did not jump over a 20cm bush and land wrongly.





are you expecting a trailer?





yes and finally to the informal post!
haha
as the title suggests,
this is da week man
mondays are almost free
cuz its only like english and chinese fer week b
tuesday lit period free
recess free
english like free one
den cheena neu ear celebs
wed thu fri free
yes friday free for us X)

as for 2dae
had our class party?
yeah den we sang qin fei de yi
switched on class comp
went class blog
cuz there got lyrics
typed out by the one and only

class video just about ready oso
UBER FUNNI
tabulei wait fer it to come out
yes n caught on tape
were me jam and joel
being told by tsk
tt our hair buay pass
alamak
2months liao he's e only one lah
too yoyoyo fer him apparently
so gotta haf guai gia hair liaox
puiii
haha
newaex me n jam planning to haf longer hair
so all e better
side parting fer now

oh b4 i forget
HAPPY BIRD-DAY TO TOADIE!!

birthday flower

a late birthday greeting to rh?
or dead wrong flower, if u'd like
yes i forgot so sorry
anwz
altho now u're of legal consensual sex age,
it is my advice u keep to guys for e time being...
(dramatic pause)
err...
k nvm

anwz its just a birthday greeting
not a happy birthday greeting
no one guaranteed that birthdays wld b happy
happy or not
birthdays are more like distance markers
telling u how far u've gone
and hopefully when u look at ur event watch
u'll b satisfied with how u lived ur life

wishing u the very best
whether it be in ur studies
ur social life
ur family life
ur spiritual life.
altho im not wishing u e very best
in ur cca life just yet~!

its the Os this year!
so do take more time to study!
(yes, tt means train less!)
it doesnt matter if ppl say tt u're a nerd
or that u're too square
cuz after all,
16's a perfect square =)

Godbless.

sleeping in sleeping

wah seh
woke up at 1
missed skl
just in time fer tuition.
hurr

okiex leg still cannot use
THAT MEANS NO ROAD RELAY
aiyah
n its not recovering as fast as i tot it wld
not swollen liaox
but still not rotating painlessly
siao liao

"though it is only light i seek, it is meaning i always find"

day of the sleep

tuition postponed 2dae
haii
anwz
skl wasnt tt tiring 2dae
somehow, i was utterly drained when i reached home
without having to go tuition
fully clad in skl uniform
i allowed myself a nap
and as always
my standard naptime never changed
i slept 4hrs as usual
on da dot
always happens
dunno how
but it just does
so here i am bloggin here
feeling as awake as a chicken to the slaughter
doing senseless stuffs
followed by emaths tt will follow hereafter
and waiting fer marcus to call

newaez
ankle feeling better
but still cannot rotate painlessly
and its almost friday
alamak
there goes my road relae
sibei jialat
hope we're taking part in
tan soo lian road relay
re enactment =)
gahh

"the bell will ring for he who believes"

gauge

off the crutches~!
plain fast recovery sia
tok kong

uhh took height/weight 2dae
GREW 1CM
muahaha
and put on 3kg since sat's injury
alamak

oh and took heart rate 2dae oso
new rekord sia
45beats/min
should i be running faster now?
yeah man
aiming 35/min
go lower can
not too low though
beep-bob-beep-bob

a stark realization dawns upon him. looking around, his knowledge-touched gaze penetrates through their hypocritical smiles. his trusted one had him on. it is not a bad thing however. dim rays of hope begin to materialize once again. the light at the end of the tunnel. can it be a hoax? or are they all really conspiring behind him? are they really conspiring for his good?

no matter.

casting the complex thoughts into the abyss of his sub-conscious, he lifts his head in full view to that glimmer of hope. "work towards it" his mind tells him. an intangible hand grabs his soul, ceasing his advancement. instincts. what did it mean? he stops to think.

step towards the light?
turn around and play the conspirators' game?
give it all up and seek another path?
take face value?
or play dead?

he stones in his spot, pondering the issue. unsure of his next move, he stagnates. wars rage on beneath his still surface. what is the next course of action?