broke

i'm brokkeee
and ppl owe $ neh pay $
i must dispatch victor to splash paint
hang his head no hang pig head on their door

i also dunno how the money disappeared
must be the officer-to-be tag got to us
when we were still cadets
must act like occifer ma

i'm awake, i'm awake

gah im awake im awake
cant get to sleep
thank god took first half day leave
otherwise i'll be leaving home soon

uploading pictures onto facebook is a chore
esp if it fails 2 times a row
gahh 3 times
gahhh then u realise u got 3 copies of some photos
=(

oh and to whoever still reads this (me)
i tweaked some parts of this blog =)

khingky is back

it's been very long since I last did this thing
i guess probably no one sees this anymore...
things have been happening
but mostly unpublishable
not cuz of explicit content
but cuz now is still in the army
i think its ok to say that i still have 11 months to go
right, msd?

ok im not quite used to this anymore
so i dunno how to go on
i'll just end here this time
maybe i'll blog more again soon

ord

1 more year to ord, o-r, o-r, d!

blogging

i gave up writing my army diary long ago
there's nothing worth writing
where i am, khing didnt come
god came, but somehow stopped there
waiting for the perfect time
and hence i wait, too

080808080808

today, 8/8, i jumped at 8.08am,
at exactly 8s past 8.08am.

at 080808, at 080808hours, i was not of this earth

posting

OH MY GOODNESS
THANK YOU GODD
LOGISTICCCSSSS

i must be the fittest log oct ever
it's a miracle
thank god

field camp

i finally booked out from field camp
its supposedly the highlight of my current term
so better days are ahead

in any case i cant blog anything abt it
the last i heard
someone blogged the name of the exercise
then kena 01 x good one

what i can blog about
is that i think someone up there is hearing me
i think i can find myself again

it was the activity prior to field camp
i stood there in the rain
peering out from under the hood of my jacket
and stared at the gloom of the canopy
i wondered again where i was
who i was
when i was
then i closed my eyes
and said a little prayer

i stood there in the rain
peering out from under the hood of my jacket
and stared at the magnificence of the rain
i watched as the gleaming droplets bounced off the leaves
i saw again the beauty in all the creation
i saw again the hands that crafted creation
i saw
and i was holding a saw =)

it all flashed past
march03, july03, december03, april04, september05, december07
i felt the wetness of the rain on my pants
i felt them wrapping uncomfortably around my legs
i said this is discomfort
i took a breath
i savoured discomfort
and that was discomfort
that was a familiar process
i think i can find me
i think i am coming back

and i still thought so throughout field camp
that is a familiar feeling
i think khing will be back

me

i've just been reading some of my older entries
i really miss the old me
i cannot find that khing in the mirror nowadays
i cannot see that spark in my eyes anymore

i remember bongard telling me that one training
and it reverberated in me so strongly
"you've lost that spark in your eyes"
i was a failure then
but i picked up again thereafter
i know how i did it

i need god
i need the love of my life to come back from china
i need acx

i need all these things to fall into place
i need the old khing to come back
i need that arrogant confidence,
the positiveness
the strength
but of course the looks have remained
i still stun myself when i look in the mirror
i wished i still could make more jokes like that
like the old me would
like the old me would say it isn't a joke
i'm not so sure now

book out

booking out is such a rarity now
things change very quickly
when you're in the outside world for a limited period
you book out after an endless stay in safti
and you realise that there are many new things
or many forgotten things out there
such as new buildings
realising that there are more than 20 females in the outside world
and finding the voice behind ash of pokemon going through puberty

i've also forgotten how to style my hair
how to take my time doing everything
how to wake up late
and why i wake up so freaking early

i've also forgotten who i was
so i've opened the last 200 entries in my blog again
bar the ones back at bigbloggybloodyblog.blogspot
share me with me

dunn

i dunno how to blog now

ocs

i never had a liking for premier institutes
but here in this phase of my life
i'm stuck at another
after this i wish i can choose not to step into one
they're very artificial,
and i don't like it.

i've learnt where i am now
to despise discipline
and to resent teamwork.
i have learned to fear
unlearnt how to be brave
thank god i still have kept my christianity
but the institution has undone its very mission
i hate it here

ocs

off to ocs tomorrow
like kevin said
is dunno whether to laugh or cry
tomorrow we knock on the gates of hell
and for 9 months we'll be burning burning

gahhhh help

9 weeks

9 weeks

This is my flair; this is my flight
In my horrid stare, beyond, a gruesome sight.
I see I saw, I fled in fright.
Tomorrow perhaps, I will still see light.

I'm meant to serve my tenure,
But I am doing time
Behind this mask, my phantom shines.
To dawn and dusk my sleeves unfold
Till long and last I build on gold.

Upon this rock I stand today.
That lighthouse upon the cliff
Perched in lofty haze.
Through the clouds my love shines through
To save me, from this wretched mess.

Across my chest this black metal thumps
In unison my heart beats,
Yet I run a slump.
I cannot trust my charge, regrettably so.
But then the saying, "you reap, you sow".

Still I remain in this prison trapped,
A tranquil, a peace, a peace i seek.
Calm my heart where from you hail,
For i trust no longer, the longer i fear.

HERE'S THE VIDEO
I LOVE AIZAT
abit shaky and some parts cannot see
but its alright aizat is still my hero

there's someone else videoing tho
can someone pls pls pls identify him

in case you're wondering
im the one on your right
shorter in height

day today

results day
very surprised our school did so well
not surprised i did well though
it was more than i deserved
but it seems god has been good to me lately

that was happy

i shaved my head
im bald

that was not happy

AIZAT VIDEOED OUR DANCE

that was very happy
i love aizat

thus far

came back a few days ago from holiday
went with parents, cousin n my woman
to macau shenzhen n hk

basically was alot of rushed fun
and essentially too long to rmb
least of all to blog out
much like the asean schs trip
way way back in august which
i have given up blogging
much like the germany trip years ago

in a few short sentences i shall attempt
to capture the trip in its outline

macau.
as all things macau
our 6 star hotel had a casino
open to 18 year olds
very eye opener
cuz i've never been to one nor tried
and still have not tried
also was the indoor river + boats
beautifulous

shenzhen.
FREE
catered by dad's contacts
who saw the need to treat us
to too much food all the time
shopping was dismal
until the discovery
of the hidden pasar malam
all hell broke loose within my wallet

hk.
also dismal shopping
till the discovery of pasar malam
loose hell broke looser
then also was ocean park
it had the most vertical pirate ship
and some really nauseating rides
of which qiu n i tried only 5

the jellyfish aquarium
was more fish then jelly
cuz we saw tons of fish we never knew
like hybrid shark sting ray
seadragon and such
and only one tiny, 30 by 20 cm tank
of ipod nano sized jellyfish

we also got a video clip
of two pandas climbing a tree and fighting on it
also i saw first hand
the workings of a panda's anus