lesson

whilst streaming down the ECP yesterday
trying in vain and screaming in agony
drowned in desperate tears
as cab after cab flashed passed but never stopped
i grew again as a person

it is always my belief
that troubles are meant to grow you
whenever you're hurt,
whenever you feel pain inside
whenever you cry
you grow

being a christian
it is also my firm belief
that God knows how much you can take
else he would send you an angel
as he had sent me 2 yesterday
in any case
i trust my God grew me again
while it is easy for sceptics and atheists
to draw upon the examples
of building jumpers
and mental patients
i say it is God's plan
while that is not concrete to say the least
i think if we could understand
we might as well be God
and if everything were in place to believe in a God
what then is the value of faith?

but even as i mulled over the distress
my limit was to be stretched
i was to be dealt another blow
as i slumped shattered along one underpass
a sensation came all of a sudden
i felt a need to move, to go somewhere
i then crossed paths with a gentleman
at that brief moment we saw each other
something twitched in me
and i believe twitched in him as well
we parted, only for another 10minutes
when i found my wallet had fallen out my bag
and so i managed to meet him at a bus stop
when he could otherwise have:
(1) taken the wallet
(2) went to the opposite bus stop
(3) do his usual afternoon run
(4) mail it to me
(5) gone to the correct bus stop

not only did he return my wallet
he sensed something not at peace in me
and for that brief period
i unloaded everything

yet the damage was still whole
though i knew i could recover myself
some gap somewhere would never close
so again i slumped
at the steps outside katong cc

but she left church
and with what little she had left
she spent it on a cab
and came to sit alongside me outside katong cc
that gap could not remain unhealed

at the end of the day
my mortal wounds are healed
as Jesus had healed ages ago
and i grew stronger as a person
now i can better look strife in the eye
and stand against the current of adversity

how are you coping today?